Well its started again

Advance apologies if my ramblings don't seem to be coherent or even make a lot of sense - I'm pissed off...

I've been quietly waiting for this moment for the last 2 years 8 months ish. The moment when the conversation about "saving the little babies from going to Hell" would come up again. Yep I got the baptism request this morning.

This time however it was disguised as "Nick was asking why his brother and sister aren't baptised, he wants them to have god parents just like he does". Like fuck he does. When John mentioned this to me my response was

"When Nick has finished his homework tonight I will ask him if he asked that, or if your mother is pulling crap out of her arse again"

Guess what - apparently I'm horrible and not willing to accept anything and go out of my way to disagree with anything that originates from Johns parents. Funny that. We got blackmailed into getting Nicholas baptised - the exact words were "if you don't baptise him we will disown you and your son" - I ask you what sane mother says that to her only child. I backed down that time after a lot of arguing. When John began his tirade this morning about how I never flex when it comes to accepting his family and their religion I quietly reminded him of our agreement and the statement that was the ONLY reason I allowed Nick to be baptised. John bowed his head and when I told him that this will not be discussed any further he agreed - no more of my children will be baptised as long as I draw breath. Extreme you may say, but not in my world it isn't.

Why on earth should I be bullied into doing things against my wishes and beliefs. Why should my substantially larger family be once again forced to go to church for a ceremony that none of us believe in. Why should I give my hard earned money to a church we will never step foot in again. Why - apparently because me and my family are less important when it comes to our chosen lifestyles. My family aren't a pack of satanists, we are also not followers of standard religion - we all have our own minds, and thoughts and do as each individual has chosen to. Whether it be pagan, atheist, agnostic or christian - we don't under any circumstances ram our own personal beliefs down the collective throats of others.

I made a promise to John when Nick was born that his children would be given every opportunity to learn about the Polish Catholic beliefs of their father and his parents - but at the same time I will be teaching them my pagan beliefs along with the fundamentals and basics of a lot of other religions and ways of life - I live a life of knowledge and its only the uneducated that suffer in my world. When they are old enough they can choose their own paths. They could become Hari Krishna's if they wish - its a personal thing. I have always held that belief, and have always said that when each child is old enough to decide for themselves I would never question them if they said they wanted to be baptised - because THEY decided. So why now has he brought this shit up again - does he have so little respect for me. I know his parents think I am less worthy than belly button lint but surely John is intelligent enough to censor what information he passes on to me. Surely he can tell them himself that its NEVER going to happen so they should crawl back under their narrow-minded little rocks.

Now to speak to the eldest child - and I suspect once again prove my mother in law is a conniving lier.....